way too much

Have you ever experienced that you're way too much for the person you love? So they ended up leaving you or worse falling out of love from you? 

That is exactly what is happening to me right now, I was way too much for her, too conservative, too possessive, too demanding, and a lot more. it hurts like hell yes, but there's no one to blame. But honestly I do blame myself a lot, I blame myself for being like this and that I just wish I could change eveything about me my personality, my appearance, the way I dress, the way I socialize with people, the way I handle everything, I mean EVERYTHING as in EVERYTHING. why? for her to love me again, to fall in love with me again, to find her way back to me again, to be happy and contented with me again. It's very depressing and frustrating =( I feel like everything about me is wrong. I don't even know when, where and how to start. Oh well that's life. I really do hope I could change ME easily before its too late bago siya matuluyan mawala sakin. hay. life is so unfair why oh why =(